I have submitted my grant application! This has been my big summer project and it is officially completed – except for the reference letters, which I could have sworn I was supposed to upload but it turns out that has to be done by the reviewers, so I am really hoping they are checking their email this week.
I’m leaving tomorrow (wait, it’s today now) for a week in Home State. It’s going to be a quick visit but I’m looking forward to it. Somehow, when I fly, much more coordination is required while I’m there, so I’ve been organizing like crazy over the last few days to get everything in: time with Newest Niece to celebrate her 7th birthday; movie with Niece #3; visiting and dinner with the family; out with Oldest Friend; out with my two high school guy friends (so glad we’ve reconnected); and lots of things with Cool Friend since I’m staying with her.
CF told me today that they had dinner with TA recently; she mentioned that I would be visiting her soon. She said he appeared quite interested, acted affronted that he didn’t know and asked what my schedule was going to be. She gave him a general sense and then sat back. Don’t worry, I’m not falling for it. He knows how to put on a good show but there’s not much backing it up. If I happen to run into him – and she thinks he’ll try to manage a casual encounter – that’s fine but I’m not going to seek him out.
Because I’ve got things going on here – and more importantly, I have enough self-respect not to allow someone undeserving to steal my time, energy or head space. Hindsight offers clarity and I am perpetually stunned by how stupid I was with TA. I know I was his rebound; I’m beginning to think he was mine. He brought me out of the wreckage of SG departing, so that’s good, but he also ensured that I would tighten the bolts on my heart. I have no wish, and no intention, to deal with heartache again – I’m not even sure I’m capable at this point – so maybe he did me a favor there, too. He’s definitely responsible for me finding the courage to date!
So, that’s all going pretty well. In a nutshell: I did meet the new gentleman for coffee Sunday afternoon and we had a lovely time. Elsewhere is not local, unfortunately, and he has an awful schedule but perhaps we’ll see each other again. I hope so, frankly; he’s a very interesting guy, we have a lot in common and I think we’d have fun together. The Gentleman has been under the weather since I got back so no interaction beyond texting this week. He told me he missed my face last night (c’mon, that’s kind of cute) so I suspect we’ll get together again when I’m back in town.
I had Date #3 with IT Guy this evening: early dinner at a local place. I had to work (and pack) this evening and he had other things later tonight, too, but he wanted to see me before I left for a week. I looked quite nice this evening, since I didn’t bother to change after a meeting on campus today: fitted sleeveless above-the-knee sheath dress in pink, salmon, white, black and blue (trust me, it looked good). Lucky him! And he was definitely impressed, given his reaction when he saw me – as well as his response when we parted. Yes, we will be seeing each other again next week. If he has his way, we’ll be seeing quite a lot of each other…ahem. I find myself not opposed to the idea.
For now, however, I need to catch a few hours of sleep before I head to the airport. Cool Friend and I are going to have a hell of a time while I’m there; she’s taken the week off and we’re going to live it up. Cue the wine and laughter!